back to the 3rd grader

Back to the 3rd grader. When the sun shined so bright in your school, a teacher called you. She told you that the headmaster would like to see you in her room. Headmaster? You think. You walked there, confused. Guessed you didnt make any trouble. When you opened the door, it surprised you. A girl, your biggest biggest enemy, sat there. One think, she reported you. Well, she liked to open her skirt in front of the class, talked behind your back (which in good position to kiss your ass), reported you to her sister, and now, to the headmaster. She couldnt face you alone, you knew it. When she reported to her BIG sister, her sister went to your class.

What did you do to my sister?

Why you no ask her? Guess she couldnt answer it right?

But your words were nasty                    

She deserved it                    

And you walk away

Im talking to you

I told you, just ask her what happened!

Im not asking her, im asking YOU

Shes slut

You think youre not?

Of course im not

But---

Look if you want this conversation continue, you should bring your sister here. If you cant, then this fancy conv will over.

She sat there, looking so desperate. You took a sit next to her, tried to make a fartest distance as you can. And the HM asked both of you

What happened with both of you?

Shes too whine

And youre too rough

Your sister and now the headmaster? You are crazy

YOU DO! – she started to cry

All i said was true

Excuse me, can you both silent for a little while, and tell me what happened between you two. One by one

And you told her everything, she cried cried and cried. You almost cry too, but you control yourself. Then the HM said

Then you two know whats wrong with yourself right? Come on you two shake hand.

You went out of the room with her. When the door behind you close, you cried and laughed. Then she hold you in her arms. And when you pulled yourself out, you took her hand and thats how the friendship began.

Untiil 6th grade. Shes still your bestfriend. Until now. And if she didnt report you to the headmaster, you wont miss her right now

Hey this my true story. This is belong to stephanie juliana huhu miss her so bad right now :_)

For godness sake it became harder than before! You have to remind yourself that you dont care what the hell they do. Even if it hurts you. Even if it breaks you. Still, you catch their eyes lock on you. Still, you see everything thay do makes you want to throw everything around. Omg they arent tired yet

You meet them at canteen. Whisper around. Oh you still act like you dont care, youre with your bestfriend! Your shoulder meet one of them ‘ shoulder, you pretend you dont know them, so you dont say any words. Why dont they see it that you dont care?!

And when you are in front of the class, do some performance. Finallyohfinally, you see a little smile in their lips, they are enjoying your performance.

Haha every haters gonna lose

this week playlist

lana del rey- dark paradise
starships- nicki minaj
payphone- maroon5
lana del rey - born to die
eyes open - taylor swift
i wont give up- jason mraz

When you wake up this morning, you feel the couriousity in your body. How the adrenaline to spend another day heat up in you. And the reality slaped you. They---people that have been your friend for a little while--- hate you. As the adrenaline lows down, you get up.

All you do in school just ignore their insults- which hurt and their words- which kill. You always catch they were looking at you at the corner of your eyes, ignore them. And when your real friend asked what happen between you and them, you want to say everything. But you realized, it would make their names bad. Then you have to tell yourself you dont care.

They all seemed recognized it that youre fully ignoring them. You laugh at the not-funny-joke just to show them that youre happy even if theyre hurted you. When they gave you their deadly eyes-looking, you ignore it you swang round your head. No more pretty-eyes-rolling again now. Because you dont care. You began a friendship with EVERYONE they hate. Which someone you ever hated too actually.

And all you can do is hoping. Hope is stronger than fear. Hoping that they will tired-as they deserve as a haters

all you hear was bla and bla and the bla

They say youre a traitor

They say youre a betrayer

They say youre a backbitter

They say youre scoundrel

And all you could say was, why?

nervous breakdown

Wow how you live against the odds because everything get so much more complicated. You dont even know who the believe anymore even your bestfriend cant see that theres a pain hidden in your pride. And how you haters accidently get so much powerful than you. That this is the first time in your life you wish you play in the hunger games.

You are tired.

The one that looked after you started laughing at you, underestimate the things you do. And you stand here, being a perfect drama queen. Trying to smile, trying to take no care for the haters that breaking you down. No one know that youre in your complete mental meltdown.

Made a wrong turn, once or twice

Get my way out blood and fire

Bad decision thats alright

Welcome to my silly life

Talk about haters. Everything you do is wrong in their pitty eyes. They have everyway to judge you. It just washed their energy really but they seem not take a look on it. All you could say inside your heart is just arent you tired guys, but im proud that i stay in your head alot.

Mistreated misplaced misunderstood

Miss-no-way-its-all-good

It didnt slow me down, mistaken always second guessing

Underestimated look im still around.

You are tired.

You already have so many disapproval this year. You told everyone it was fine, but inside........ oh never ask about it.

As you look into the mirror. You have a total-drama-queen-disrepair

And you........... started to cry.

I stare at my reflection in the mirror

Why am i doing this to myself?

Losing my mind on a tiny error

I nearly left the real me, on the shelf

Look at me when im talking to you

You looking at me but im looking trough you

I see the blood in your eyes

I see the love in disguise

I see the pain hidden in your pride

I see your not satisfied

Youre in the-most-boring-class-on-the-entire-world. Youre in the corner. Sitting with someone you dont know so much. You look to your right, the one that ever called you her bestfriend, writing something. Luckily, you have an ability to read something in long enough distance. You read it. It looks like a little diary on a piece of paper. She wrote that everything sucks. And you see your name. Wrote in capslock. You pay full attention now. And when she stops writing, the words become so clear. She wrote that youre f*ck.

Instead of sad, you just laugh. You remember when she said:

We are bestfriend forevermore, nothing will seperated between us. If we split up, someone will say an apologize.

With full of adrenaline you run to your “now” bestfriend. Someone you had left when you have friendship with your “ex-bestfriend”. You told her everything, how you read it and how you feel it. And your bestfriend says something like:

Oh my god so she hates me too. Omg i dont care shes alot worse than two of us. How unfortunately that she hates us. Wow omg i still dont care.

You get back to your sit. In the corner of your eye, you catch a sight that shes waving the paper and she looked at you. And in your heart you laughlaughlaugh and like. And you were like omg im here brainless y u no come to me oh pity little coward

Omg i dont care

When you get out of the class, her eyes meet yours. And you do your pretty rolling eyes that could make everybody hates you and get away.

Nothing will seperated between us

Youre on your way to the next class. You read something in front of the class.  The popular boy has to cover his mouth because he is laughing hard. To you or not? You dont know. And the popular girl has to hide her face because she is trying to not laugh. To you or not? You dont know.

You try to get out of the class as fast as you can. Outside you meet your real friends, they are all LAUGHING WITH YOU not LAUGHING AT YOU, you love and owe them so much. Someone of them calling your name, you look at her and answer her question then meet you ex bestfriend eyes again. It looks like anybody says your name she looked at you. You do your pretty rolling eyes and get away.

And thats how the war began

We are bestfriend forevermore, nothing will seperated between us. If we split up, someone will say an apologize.