once upon a time, there was a girl.
a girl who used to believe in tooth fairy.
a girl who used to think that santa would visit her house during christmas' eve
a girl who, once, used to think about happily ever after.
as she grew up, her mom kept telling her that she could be anything that she wanted to be.
as she grew up, she knew that mommy lied.
as she grew up, she understand why there was no happily ever after.
as she grew up, she started to build her own castle of dreams.
but one day....
she became older.
she understood why her mom lied.
she understood that there is happily ever after like it said on its book. but, who said together?
she understood all the mysteries of her life so far.
but she didnt understand, why people come and leave and give her such a blessing or either a lesson?
people come and go.
stay and leave.
love and hurt.
then,
she was no longer building a castle
she built a wall, instead.
to kept her from the bad guy.
who gave the ugliest scar.
who gave the hardest lesson to learned, ever.
she tried to erase those permanent scars.
she tried to learn those hardest one.
she tried to believe that she shouldnt believe anyone, anymore.
knock, knock
someone came.
and with a single touch
the wall crumbled down
that girl knew, if she let this boy in, she will regret in in some way, someday.
but she just lets go with the waves until she crash on some corals, instead.
that waves took her to the moooost wonderful trip, ever.
inside that happiness, she had no idea that the corals were soo near.
and thats why she didnt expect to sink that early.
unfortunately, inside that dark side. nobody caught her, nobody.
then.
those permanent scars goes deeper and deeper.
those lesson goes harder and harder.
now.
all her castle of dreams crumbling down too.
and she scared to take another step, because it feels like every step she take is she steps on leggo.
now she believe in fairytales ending, she believe that even hope is just and illusion
still,
she doesnt understand what happen with those up all nights, those crazy little things and where theyre gone.
she doesnt understand why she miss a people she shouldnt miss.
she doesnt understand why she could stand next to someone she had so much memories with and not saying a thing to them.
