I have a best friend...

by Jenna

I have a best friend... In the sandbox we used to play, We grew up with eachother, but things ended up this way I began to meet some new friends, they all seemed pretty nice, You told me they were the wrong crew, But I didn't take your advice I started smoking and drinking, sneaking out and skipping school, I never returned your phonecalls because I was just too cool I never told you the truth, I just had to lie, You told me I needed help And all I could say was why? I went to a party that night, And I got so messed up I couldn't talk, I tried to cross the street, but I could barely walk I heard a loud engine, and I saw a bright light, I then felt a great shove, and I looked to my right You'd been hit by a Semi, With all the blood I could see, You just pushed me out of the way And that's how it had to be A tear rolled down my face, I could tell that you were dead, I hugged your lifeless body and wished it was me instead I've been sober for 3 years, and I have many more to spend, I have my guardian angel, I have a best friend...

Never Without Love

by Chord Princess

My life was over,  Or so it had seemed, I said my goodbyes, And I silently screamed. I knew it was wrong,  But it just felt so right, When sadness creeps in, It puts up a fight. I went into the kitchen, I looked all around,  I saw what I needed, My heart started to pound. I tested the edge, As I picked up the knife, I placed it over my wrist, As I went over my life. I had no one to leave, Nobody who cared, A small little girl, Could certainly be spared. The phone started to ring, And I suddenly knew, I don't really know how, But it had to be you. I slowly walked over, And picked up the phone, In that moment I'd never felt more alone. You begged me to stop, To not do what I would, I said nothing at all, I don't think that I could. You cried and you pleaded, And I didn't know how, I had missed it so long, But I finally saw now. You may think life is hopeless, That there's no help from above, But as long as you have friends, You'll always have love.

People go everyday not knowing what they may lose
Not knowing if that day someone will bring them bad news
I’ve known many in my life that have been through heartache
Scared from the nightmare they may never awake
I know you have been through a lot and I am here to hold your hand
Through all the trials life has in store, by your side I shall stand
Although I can’t erase the scars, I hope to help them fade
Don’t forget all the good memories, all the smiles you have made
I know it’s hard to say goodbye, to finally let them go
Missing them and praying that they know
I know it’s hard to lose someone to know they are no longer here 
To wake every morning having to face a terrible new fear
I promise to lift you up whenever you are down
I will place a smile on your face whenever there’s a frown
I love you unconditionally you are my very best friend
All the pieces to your broken heart I will do my best to mend
Lives are lost daily, I know it isn’t fair
Just know you will always have someone that truly cares
One day you will join them in heaven, and then you’ll finally see
That through all this time you’ll always have a friend in me

I Want to Be Just Like You

In a time when fathers are totally absent,
gone most of the time,
or physically present but mentally distracted,
you are there for me—
looking at me, listening to me
understanding me, talking with me.
You make time for me
even when it's inconvenient for you.
You make me feel important to you.

I learn from you when you teach me,
when I watch you do things,
and when I observe you
just being you—a terrific father.

Every affectionate smile you give me,
every pat on the back, every hug
shows me you love me,
that you're proud of me.

These are things I'll remember
to do for my own kids.
You're a great role model, Dad.
I want to be just like you.

i want to read one of this poem for my talent test. but hardly to choose one of them. any advice?

the hunger album songs

The Hunger Album Songs

• Abraham's Daughter by Arcade Fire
• Tomorrow Will be Kinder by The Secret Sisters
• Nothing to Remember by Neko Case
• Safe and Sound by Taylor Swift feat. The Civil Wars
• The Ruler and The Killer by Kid Cudi
• Dark Days by The Punch Brothers
• One Engine by The Decemberists
• Daughter's Lament by Carolina Chocolate Drops
• Kingdom Come by The Civil Wars
• Take the Heartland by Glen Hansard
• Come Away to the Water by Maron 5 feat. Rozzi Crane
• Run Daddy Run by Miranda Lambert feat. Pistol Annies
• Rules by Jayme Dee
• Eyes Open by Taylor Swift
• Lover is Childlike by The Low Anthem
• Just a Game by Birdy

mockingjay's quotes!

mockingjay quotes.

Still, I hate them. But of course, I hate almost everybody now. Myself more than anyone - Katniss Everdeen

And it takes too much energy to stay angry with someone who cries so much - katniss everdeen's feeling to finnick odair

"During the Quarter Quell, Octavia and Flavius had to quit because they couldnt stop crying over me going back ini. and venia could barely say good-bye. - katniss everdeen to gale hawthorne

although things never seem to go according to plan - katniss everdeen's feeling

Gale : "Youre still angry"
Katniss: "And youre still not sorry"
gale: "i still stand by what i said. do you want me to lie about it?"
katniss: "no, i want you to rethink it and come up with the right opinion"

"they'll either want to kill you, kiss you, or be you" - finnick odair

maybe everyone is just trying to protect me by lying to me. i dont care. im sick of people lying to me for my own good - katniss everdeen's feeling

"have to be dead to forget. maybe even not then" - gale hawthorne

whatever the opposite of fine, thats what i am - katniss everdeen's feeling

it isnt possible. for someone to make peeta forget he loves me. . .  no one could do that - katniss

"youve got to stop running straight into trouble " - gale to katniss

peeta : i must have loved you a lot"
katniss: you did
peeta: and did you love me?
katniss: everyone says i

"friend. lover. victor. enemy. fiancee. target. mutt. neighbor. hunter. tribute. ally. i'll add it to the list of words i use to try to figure you out" - peeta describing katniss

"youre a painter. youre a baker. you like to sleep with your windows open. you never take sugaar in your tea. and you always double-knob your shoelaces" - katniss describing peeta

peeta: "youre still trying to protect me. real or not real?"
katniss: "real. because thats what you and i do. protect each other"

"i think...... you still have no idea. the effect you can have" - peeta to katniss

i have learned the hard way how deadly these beautis can be - katniss

my name is katniss everdeen. why am i not dead? i should be dead. it would probably be best for everyone if i were dead

peeta: you love me,real or not real?"
katniss: "real"

im totally in love with finnick odair and i know the odds are against me because he's only a fictional character.

bleep

tadi itu tes bleep dan super super capek:---)
pas dibacain 12 orang pertama yg lari demiapapun itu kaya reaping day.
dan akhirnya sampailah bagian yang sangat mendebarkan saat nama gue dipanggil.
hahhahaha.
eh bentar. jadikan pak bambang bacain ketentuannya gitu, mendadak gue inget yang training di thg orgnya bilang
"in the next two weeks. 23 of you will die, 1 of you will be the victor blabla"
terus gue ngebaayangin pak bambang bilang
"in the next two weeks 60 of you will fall, and 60 of you will be the victors"
hah.
terus gue lari di lintasan 8!
jangan. distrik 8:--)
terus akhirnya.............
gue berada di lintasannnn! terus kan kaya saling mengucapkan goodluck sama atika yg mukanya super pucet abis.
bentar. taugaksih yg thg pas tributes mau ke cornucopia kan 5,4,3,2,1 terus teeeeng gimana gt kan. masa di kaset lari bleep ada begituan juga hahahhah.
terus pas ada bunyi itu terus tulalit gue mulai lari kan. gue biasa aja belom cape sampe mulai 1 bagian akhir.
pas 2 bagian awal tuh udh kaya haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
lintasan nya jadi kerasa super panjang banget padahal pas liat dari tribun itu selo aja gak sepanjang ini.
is it by mistake or design? ...............
terus pas dua lintasan 8 kalo gak salah, gue ngeliat ke arah atika dan dia udh gak ada.
gue shock. ya gagitu juga sih. tapi abis itu gue lsg pelanggaran satu. langsung lari lagi, terus pas nginjek garis masih bisa diem sebentar tapi............. kaki gue sebelah kaya gak bisa digerakin-__- najisitunyebelinparah
tau gak sih yg lagu nya lana del rey - born to die? terus gue dlm hati lsg nyanyi itu karena lirik nya sangat pas
"feet dont fail me now, take me to the finish line"
ya tapi sayang sekali akhirnya gue pelanggaran 2 dan dilanjutkan pelanggaran 3 dengan 3 bagian 2 kayanya! wuuuuuuuuw.
super sangat capek banget tes bleep itu.

1) Put your iTunes on shuffle. Give me the first 6 songs that pop up.
i think about you everyday - arttm. I cant lie – maroon 5. Hot right now – iforgotwho . hit the lights – selena gomez. Helena beat – foster the people. Hate that i love you – rihanna ft ne-yo

2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
Hmm i feel as if I should say something sophisticated but it would probably be josh hutcherson and isabelle furhman J

3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.
“Peeta.” And for this time, i find i cant hold this......     -----catching fire

4) What do you think about most?

books ive read, people and the point of things. And finnick odair

5) What does your latest text message from someone else say?
iyadeh iya. hahaha

6) Do you sleep with ____ or without ______ on?
with clothes on brainless

7) What’s your strangest talent?
well im not sure if i have one

8) Girls…. (finish the sentence); Boys…. (finish the sentence)
girls are hard to work out. Boys are hard to work out

9) Ever had a poem or song written about you?
nope.

10) When is the last time you played the air guitar?
months ago?

11) Do you have any strange phobias?
idk

12) Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?
thats what i hate

13) What’s your religion?

christian

 14) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?

Walk. play

15) Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
depends. but mostly in front of haha

16) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?
arttm

17) What was the last lie you told?
yes.

18) Do you believe in karma?
Sort of. Im a bit iffy about it.

19) What does your URL mean?
i just read it on one book and i feel kinda keen into it

20) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?
ugh no idea. in what; socially, physically, mentally?????

21) Who is your celebrity crush?
JOSHUA RYAN HUTCHERSON AND ALEXANDER LUDWIG

22) Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
no idea what you mean

23) How do you vent your anger?
run the hell out of the place.

24) Do you have a collection of anything?
books and barbie
25) Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? Video chatting. phone calls are soo awkward whereas if your on video you can just be like ” i have to go to the bathroom, i’ll be back soon” or say that you have bad internet or something.

26) Are you happy with the person you’ve become? Sort of. Well maybe yes

27) What’s a sound you hate; sound you love? crying babies, piano

28) What’s your biggest “what if”? someone and know dies?
29) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens? Well i have seen ghosts actually but aliens no

30) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm. Little women book and catching fire

31) Smell the air. What do you smell? lotion

32) What’s the worst place you have ever been to? a memorial park

33) Choose East Coast or West Coast? idk what you mean.

34) Most attractive singer of your opposite gender? Drew seeley and hm justin?

35) To you, what is the meaning of life? No idea

36) Define Art. imagination on paper.

37) Do you believe in luck? sort of. its like the karma thing; im a bit iffy bout it.

38) What’s the weather like right now? sunny

39) What time is it? 8:54 am

40) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed? No.

41) What was the last book you read? Little women – louisa may alcott (go on read it)

42) Do you like the smell of gasoline? Is it bensin? ............... if yes, no

43) Do you have any nicknames? Laras? Well maybe rahel or whatever you want. But bit limited

44) What was the last movie you saw? the hunger games.

45) What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had? Im not sure.

46) Have you ever caught a butterfly? Sadly no
47) Do you have any obsessions right now? hunger games and catching fire and mockingjay

48) What’s your sexual orientation? Hah?

49) Ever had a rumor spread about you?  yeeeshhh

50) Do you believe in magic? honestly, no.

51) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong? No i think

52) What is your astrological sign? pisces

53) Do you save money or spend it? i dont have money in the first place but i do both.

54) What’s the last thing you purchased? Magazines

55) Love or lust? love

56) In a relationship? no

58) Can you touch your nose with your tongue? No. haha

59) Where were you yesterday? home and friends house.

60) Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you? necklace

61) Are you wearing socks right now? no

62) What’s your favorite animal? doooog

63) What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you? dont hav one

64) Where is your best friend? at their house

65) Spit or swallow?(;

66) What is your heritage? indonesia

67) What were you doing last night at 12 AM? turning off my lights

68) What do you think is Satan’s last name? idk

69) Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?  ??????????????

70) Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend? idk. yes they could relate to me and my problems.

71) You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do? save the doggie :D

72) You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?

a) tell a few people first, and then everyone after a week.

b) family and friends and ive always wanted to go to america

c) sort of. Yes

73) You can only have one of these things; trust or love. trust.

74) What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it? Raise your glass - pink
75) What are the last four digits in your cell phone number? Forgot it

76) In your opinion, what makes a great relationship? a lot of things. cbf to write them all sorry.
77) How can I win your heart? no idea. make me laugh.

78) Can insanity bring on more creativity? always

79) What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far? idk.

80) What size shoes do you where? 37 38

81) What would you want to be written on your tombstone? something about people rembering me and loving me.

82) What is your favorite word? Magnificent or faboulous cant choose one

83) Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart. Pink lol

84) What is a saying you say a lot? Coincidence? Well yes most of time

85) What’s the last song you listened to? Born to die – lana del rey

86) Basic question; what’s your favorite color/colors? Hm. Light purple

87) What is your current desktop picture? Clove and cato

88) If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be? no one. joseph kony perhapss. BUT I THINK I MIGHT BE “HER”

89) What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on? idk

90) One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do? Scream mommy and throwing whatever to them and pray inside heart haha
91) You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power? Having it-was-all-up-to-me power

92) You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again? Uhm. When i laugh so hard til cry.

93) You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be? My grandpa and dogs not dying L

94) You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be? JOSHUA RYAN HUTCHERSON

95) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go? L a

96) Do you have any relatives in jail? no

97) Have you ever thrown up in the car? no

98) Ever been on a plane? yes 

99) If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say? Here’s some advice, stay alive

100) any last word?

Uhm no

DONE :D sorry for some brief answers; im tired :/ and i dont know how to put it on read more so scroll quickly ;]

Haaai. Kemaren sabtu itu salsa ngerayain ulang taun nya di damask. Gue sampe sana jam 12 tengtong dan yang dateng baru dua org yang gak gue kenal ha-ha. Terus gue duduk bareng mereka sama salsa dan bbmin yang lain suruh cepetaan. terus........... alifamirah dateng. Najis woy gila alifa tinggi banget. Terus kita ngobrol22. Temen22 salsa yang lain pada daateng juga, terus kenalan. Pokoknya tiap gilirannya amirah yang kenalan gitu gue sama alifa bilang, “udah udah yang ini sih gausah”. Ya blabla terus fira dateng. Ifath datengg. Abis itu ada kejadian yang bikin fira sama amiraah jadi poker face abis HAHAHA. Nada indara kenu asti dika anky moch dateng. Terus kita foto22. Diva dkk juga akhirnya dateng. Buat pembukaan ada band gitu, abis itu gue ifath nada indara dan ara yg baru dateng nyanyi haha-__-. Ada kuis gitukan, gue jawab terus buat ngambil hadiahnya mesti nyanyi. Lagi. Gue ifath sama 2 temen salsa yg lain nyanyi juga nothing on you. Abis itu makan dan salsa pukul pinata. HAHAHA btw kakaknya hampir kepukul juga...... terus pas penutupan gue ara ifath salsa marsha nada tiara salma yeyen siapa lg itu pokoknya banyak nyanyi LAGI the one that got away. Dan akhirnya, pulang

when im talking and the teacher looks at me

my expression when my parents give me money

six words you never say to a fangirl

WHEN THAT ONE KID REMINDS THE TEACHER YOU HAD HOMEWORK

when you see someone you dont like

so caesar has A BLUE TONGUE

WHEN YOURE GONNA HOME ALONE YOU WERE LIKE : "YEAH I'M FREE"
THE YOU HEAR THE SLIGHTEST NOISE

WHEN THE TEACHER ASKS A QUESTION AND YOU SHOUT THE ANSWER, BUT THE TEACHER DOESNT HEAR IT AND SOMEONE YELLED SHOUT IT LOUDER THAN YOU AND THE TEACHER HEAR IT YOU WERE LIKE.

WHEN THE WIND BLOWS
EXPECTATION

REALITY

WHEN SOMEONE FOLLOW MY BLOG

 I’m the most, gorgeous, attractive, perfect, extraordinary, human you’ve ever seen in your entire life. Only then will I stop with the names. 

taste the rainbow

lol

I remember tears streaming down your face
When I said, "I'll never let you go"
When all those shadows almost killed your light
I remember you said, "Don't leave me here alone"
But all that's dead and gone and passed tonight

Just close your eyes
The sun is going down
You'll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound

Don't you dare look out your window darling
Everything's on fire
The war outside our door keeps raging on
Hold on to this lullaby
Even when the music's gone
Gone

Just close your eyes
The sun is going down
You'll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound

Oooh, Oooh, Oooh, Oooh
Oooh, Oooh, Oooh, Oooh
La La (La La)
La La (La La)
Oooh, Oooh, Oooh, Oooh
Oooh, Oooh, Oooh, Oooh
La La (La La)

Just close your eyes
You'll be alright
Come morning light,
You and I'll be safe and sound...

Oooh, oooh, oooh, oooh oh oh. [x7]

clato fanfic

Something is wrong. Something is terribly wrong.

I pivot sharply and sprint for the Cornucopis, completely dropping the chase of the girl from 5. When the Cornucopia comes into sight, all I can see is her. Clove is sprawled on the ground with a large dent in her skull, but she isn't bleeding. It doesn't even register with me that our pack is gone until later, seeing as though I have bigger things to worry about.

I stop in my tracks. "Clove." I breathe, tears starting to trickle down my cheeks. I run over to her and fall to my knees, brushing the hair out of her face.

"Clove..." I say quietly, trying to suppress the tears now streaming down my face.

"Cato!" she manages with a weak voice, looking around blindly.

I grab her hand and hold it against my cheek.

"Stay with me." I beg. "Don't do this to me, Clove!"

Tears start to spill over the rims of her lids. "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry..." her voice trails off, and it's as if she's slowly slipping from my grasp. I hold on to her tighter, dropping her hand.

"We were supposed to be victors! We were supposed to go back to District 2 and help our families! We were supposed to be together!"

"I can't, Cato. I can't..." Her eyes flutter closed and her breathing becomes shallow.

"Don't leave, please, don't leave." I whimper.

The cold shock of realization hits me like a kick to the chest. It's futile; she can't be saved.

"I'll win for us, Clove. I swear I will." I say, my voice rising in anger at the person who did this to her.

"Don't forget about my sisters." she says, slipping deeper into unconsciousness.

"I love you." I admit. I've known it since the night before the tracker jacker attack, and maybe even before then. I just had to tell her before she left me for good.

"I… I…" she breathes.

Before she can finish her sentence, the cannon sounds. Her cannon. Until now, I hadn't associated that sound with pain and suffering. But now it feels like a bullet in my heart. It echoes in my head, slowly draining me of my sanity.

I'm sobbing now, clutching Clove's lifeless body to my chest. Cries of pain and agony escape my lungs. I'm holding nothing back now. Let Panem see how emotionally attached to Clove I am. Was. Let them see the real me; I am more than a killing machine, I am Cato Eeron.

It takes all of my strength to leave her there, but somehow I manage to do it. I kiss her forehead one last time and pull myself away from the scene, back towards camp.

youre gone. youre dead. there is no going back

YOU MUST READ THIS
"You're sitting at your desk, and you know it's time to go. You've said that to yourself over a million times, but this time you know, for sure, is real. You're tired... you're just so very tired. You're parents pissed you off, like school wasn't bad enough today. You go to get the rope, or the knife, or the gun or whatever you choose to use because you're that desperate. You're ready. You think of it as some game... the first one dead is the one who wins. No ones home, it's the perfect time. You're ready. If you don't do it, you're gonna look down on yourself even more forever. You're just going to hate yourself even more. No one knows, no one will know... until tomorrow. Instead of getting a paper and a pen, you get the video camera out, along with a chair. You're standing on the chair. You decided to go with the rope... you're gone instantly and there will be no noise. One side of the rope is tied to the top of your fan and the other is already around your neck. You're in tears, you know it's for real this time. You turn on the video camera and just stare at the red light blinking upon your eyes. You start to mumble out a few words. "Mom and dad, I'm sorry. I don't know why I'm sorry, but I'm sorry. I can't do this anymore. Please don't blame yourself, please. I love you both, and tell my siblings the same. I'll see you all soon." You say sorry to your best friend because you know you won't be there for him anymore when he needs you more than ever. You say sorry to everyone you could think of... even yourself. You're sorry for not being strong anymore. You're sorry for breaking down. You're sorry for putting them through so much pain in their life. You stare, once again, at the red light blinking upon your eyes. One foot is off the chair now as you begin to mouth the word goodbye. You have the remote control to turn off the camera in your hand. You clicked the off button and as soon as you see that light go off, you go off. Both feet are now off the chair... the chair is on the floor... the room is filled with silence. You're dead. You're gone. There is no going back. Everything is over. You don't have to live in pain anymore... but everyone else will. What are your parents going to think? What about your little brother, or little sister? What are they going to do? You're gone. You're dead. There is no going back. You ended your life because the person of your dreams only thinks of you as friends. You ended your life because that one teacher was harder on you than anyone else in the class because she knows you're the only one that is going somewhere in life. Your parents are home. They call your name telling you their home, just like they normally do when they get home.... but something's different. You don't answer. They get worried... you always answer. They come upstairs thinking your sleeping or showering. Your mom opens your bedroom door and screams at the top of her lungs. She instantly passes out. Now your little brother comes up after her. He screams "DADDY HELP!!!!" He runs over to you hitting your leg begging you to wake up. "WAKE UP, WAKE UP. PLEASE STOP WAKE UP". But you don't answer, you're not waking up. You're gone. You're dead. There is no going back. Your dad comes running upstairs and all he could do is stare. He watches his baby girl swing back and forth on a rope. He sees the video camera and he sees the chair. But he doesn't move. He's stiff as a board. He cries.... Your dad NEVER cries. He picks up the phone and calls 911. He can barely get the words "My daughter committed suicide" out of his mouth. Your little sister stares at your dad. Your dad hangs up and your little sister jumps into your dad's arms, crying harder than ever. She's too young to understand completely, but she knows you're gone. You're dead. There is no going back. Everything is over. The cops finally arrive. They push your dad and sister out of your room and sit them in the living room. They take your body down off the ropes and lay you on the stretcher. They cover your body and out you go... just like that. You're gone. You're dead. There's no going back. Nothing is the same. Two weeks have passed and your mom still stares out the window more than half of the day. Your little sister still hasn't returned to school. Your dad is forced to go to work so he can pay all the bills for your wake and funeral. Eventually, they found to strength to go into your room. Your door hasn't been open for months. The rope is still laying on the floor and the video camera is still sitting on the table. They don't even dare to watch the video, it will never be seen. They slowly pick up the rope and throw it in the garbage. Chills run up their spine, your mom basically in tears. They brush off your bed, making it neat... like they used to do every morning after you went to school. Your bed was made and your room was clean. They shut the door, and it remained shut. Your school is still in distress. You thought no one cared and you thought no one noticed you. The girl that said no to being your lab partner, yeah she cuts every single night now because she thinks it's her fault you died. The boy that tripped you by accident and didn't say sorry, yeah he's in suicidal therapy 5 days a week in a hospital because he feels a smile could of saved your life and he didn't give that to you. The teacher that was hard on you that day, she quit her job because she felt she wasn't suited to teach anymore. You're gone. You're dead. There's no going back. 4 years have passed. Your little sister is now 15 years old. She started a club in her school dedicated to you. "Secrets" is what he calls it. The club is formed for kids to speak their hearts, without anyone judging them. They can say anything they want to, and talk about anything they needed to. If they were suicidal, they always had someone. That was your problem. You didn't want to talk to anyone. You had everything bottled up inside of you. You acted as if you were the happiest kid on the planet and you had the perfect life. You played that character so well that even you started to believe it. You would be so "happy" and as soon as you layed in bed at night, the thoughts came back. A little fight between you and your parents could have set you off. But with everything inside of you bottled up for years, it hit your limits. You're gone. You're dead. There's no going back. Your room will never be occupied. Your mom still cries every single night. Your dad isn't as strong as he used to be. Your little sister will never grow up with you by her side moving her in the right direction. Your best friend is still torn up. Your school now has a club dedicated to you so teens will not make the same mistake you did. Your life was precious and you took it away in the blink of an eye. All you needed was a smile, that's all you needed. But since you're gone, just know people cared. People always have cared. You were just way too upset to see that. You were just too caught up in the fact that you thought no one cared... when the truth was, more people cared about you that you ever thought they would. Your town will never be the same. A girl is gone, a special girl who thought no one cared. Everyone cared. I promise you. They care, they always have cared. We loved you, and no matter what, we will still always love you."






WHOA IN TEARS

effie: Hey I just reaped you

Effie: And this is crazy

Effie: Don't stab that table

Effie: It is mahogany